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"I JUST WANT A QUICK PRAYER."
Roadside Report from Emil
I prayed with her a year ago but she wasn’t ready to hear. Now she was back and was saying, "I’ve been searching high and low for answers to my life. I was just hoping you could say a quick prayer with me because I don’t know who to turn to anymore." "Where’s Jesus in your life?" I asked her. She replied, "I’m not religious but I try to be spiritual," and went on to tell me that she tries to help people and to be good to her kids and kind to animals.
I didn’t have much hope of this going anywhere but when I asked the Lord what He wanted to say to her, I immediately saw a vision! I said, "The Lord just gave me a picture of you going up to a huge house and you walk all the way around the outside. You cup your hands around your face and look in all the windows. You say, ‘Wow, this is beautiful.’ You have searched the house high and low from the outside and you’ve been all around it, looking through every window." Her eyes teared up. "God showed you that?! I just said to myself this morning that my life is a house and I’m on the outside looking in, trying to figure out what’s on the inside—Why was I born? What’s the purpose of my life? Does my life have any meaning?" She was shocked that God heard what she said and gave it back to her in a vision. That was the turning point!
The Lord said, "Tell her I am the house and all her life she’s been peeking in the windows, getting little glimpses of me, trying to figure out what I’m like. But until she opens the door, she’ll never see the fullness of what’s inside. She’ll always be guessing about what it’s like. If she opens the door, I will come into her heart."
She began to cry. The Lord said, "She’s afraid of me." I said, "The Lord just told me your father never told you that he loved you, he never told you he was proud of you, and you always sought his approval when you were young but you never got it." She broke down sobbing, "He never told me he loved me until I was 11 years old. I’ve always been afraid I could never be good enough for God just like I could never be good enough for my dad."
The Lord said, "Tell her that I have not called her to be perfect; I’ve only called her to be forgiven." She wept as she prayed and received the Lord and got filled with the Holy Spirit. The Lord said every morning she’s to sit in front of Him and ask Him to show her how much He loves her, and He will. She cried and cried and said, "Thank you for being out here. I know God sent you here for me today."
"WHAT’S YOUR DEEPEST FEAR?"
He stopped for prayer for finances. "My wife is afraid and cried this morning about our money." He is on disability because of brain damage from using drugs in his early years. I asked the Lord what He wanted to say and I heard, "Ask him what his deepest fear is." He hung his head and said, "I am very afraid to die. I am a Christian and I believe Jesus died for me but I am worried that He won’t allow me into heaven. I overdosed once and died, and I got angry at God because they brought me back to life. I was so angry that I swore at Him, cursed Him and said some terrible things to Him. A few years later, after I gave my heart to the Lord and became a Christian, I asked Him to forgive me but I am so afraid He won’t let me into heaven because of all the things I said!!"
I did not know how to answer him but God did: "Tell him that Moses killed a man trying to protect his people, but I used him to lead a nation out of captivity. David committed adultery and murdered Uriah but I still loved him and used him as king. Jonah rebelled against Me but I used him to turn a nation back to Me. Ask him if he is worse than any of these men and tell him that I forgave them and I forgive him also because he has repented before Me!" His eyes just filled with tears! The Lord said, "When he receives my forgiveness, the demons of fear, anxiety, depression and doubt can be cast out because they will lose their right to him!" He also told me to tell him that when fear tries to come back, he is to pray and God will show him there is nothing to be fearful of or depressed about and God will renew his mind that way.
I felt the Lord also say he would be fully healed and return to work off of disability and all medications in six months. He said, "I want this so bad. I cannot believe I stopped for prayer for finances, and God is going to heal me, forgive me, and deliver me!" He cried as he prayed and accepted the Lord’s forgiveness. I commanded the demonic spirits to go and when I did, he almost fell backwards. Then I led him to be filled with the Holy Spirit. When we were through, he said this time he knew the Lord truly forgave him and he said as he hugged me, "I’m not afraid anymore about dying! It’s gone! I can’t wait to get home and tell my wife everything the Lord did for me today!" He hugged me again and left!
HE CAME BACK. THIS TIME HE WAS SERIOUS.
He said, "I stopped a couple of months ago. I wanted to rededicate my life to the Lord but you wouldn’t pray with me until I left my girlfriend and returned to my wife and made things right. I told you I didn’t want to do that. Do you remember me?" I did. I’d told him to come back when he wanted to get serious with the Lord. He said after I prayed with him that day that God would show him the truth about his situation, he kept feeling worse and worse about his girlfriend and he finally had to quit seeing her. He said, "I have such an empty feeling deep down in. I feel so empty inside, like I’m dying."
I heard the Lord say, "Ask him if he can forgive himself." He answered, "I don’t feel that I should be forgiven. I just feel so bad about my life." The Lord said, "Ask him if he still has feelings for his wife." He said he did. I continued, "The Lord wants me to ask you if your wife still loves you." He said, "I can see that she does sometimes but other times I see the hate in her eyes." After a moment, he asked, "Do you think God wants us together?" "YES!!! The Bible says God hates divorce. He wants you to reconcile with your wife and ask her forgiveness and to give your heart to Jesus. Stop what you’re doing and return home and God will heal your family."
Suddenly I felt the Lord had me say, "You cheated on your wife because you have always had a lonely empty feeling in your heart that your father never filled. You are searching for something to fill that empty pit and until you fully surrender to Jesus and give Him your heart totally and completely, you will never be satisfied." He said, "It’s true. Would you please pray with me so I can totally surrender my life?" When I put my hand upon his shoulder, I immediately saw spirits of lust and adultery upon him. We prayed and he came out of agreement with them and I cast them out. He got filled with the Holy Spirit and rededicated his life to the Lord.
When he left, he was going to call his wife to see if they could talk.
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"I’M NOT INTERESTED IN PRAYER!!!"
A biker pulled up and made it clear. "I’m not interested in prayer. I just want directions." He stayed on his motorcycle while I
wrote them down for him. Then I heard the Lord say, "Ask him where I am in his life." He said, "I have no idea. I’m not really
concerned with whether I go to heaven or hell." I said, "Well, God is. He sent His Son so that we could live with Him forever."
The Lord said to me, "Tell him that hell is a place of torment for all of eternity, not just for a lifetime. The worst possible life on
earth will be nothing like hell. But in heaven, there’s no pain, no fear, no suffering or disease. And the glory of the Lord radiates
like daylight." I told him this and then said, "The biggest thing God wants is for you to know where you’re going, to have a
relationship with you, and for you to read His word." I explained the love of God.
After that he said, "After everything you’ve told me, I don’t have a problem giving my life over to the Lord any more, but I
do have a problem giving up meth." He said it’s the only thing that gives relief to his chronic back pain. He had spent 20 of his
50 years in prison because of meth but he thought of it as his friend because his back didn’t hurt when he used it. I said,
"Do you know that God can heal your back? Meth is not your friend. It’s demonic." His eyes got really big and he said he
never saw it that way. I said, "It’s a demon. It’s an addiction and a deception. For 20 years it’s controlled your life and put you in
prison. If you want to, we can cast out this demon of addiction and the cravings." Once he realized it was a demon, he wanted to
get rid of it.
The Lord said, "Tell him that he’s on meth because he can’t deal with the issues of his father. He’s tired of people abandoning
him. People have walked out and left him." He said "You’re right. Even my own kind—bikers that I rode with for years—I found out I
couldn’t even trust them." "Would you like to start your life over today and see what life with Jesus is like?" I asked. He put his forehead against his handlebars and nodded his head. He said, "I’m tired of my life. I’ve always thought of God as just a being
somewhere out there who created everything. But what you’re telling me is that I could actually have a relationship with God?"
"You can have a close relationship," I assured him, "That’s all He wants. I don’t believe in coincidences. You stopped here today because God wants to get hold of your life." He said, "Yeah, I believe that, too." "Are you ready to get rid of the meth? Are you willing to come out of agreement with the demonic hold on your life?" He said yes and got off his bike to pray.
But the Lord wasn’t done. He said, "Ask him who broke his heart." He just stared at me and said, "Wow, I was just thinking
of that yesterday. I just can’t seem to let that go. I met the woman of my dreams when I was 26. But because of stupid things I did,
she left. I’ve never been able to love anyone like that since." I said, "God wants to fill that place. You’ve been searching half your life for a love that will satisfy you." He agreed, "I think about it all the time. I’m ready. I really need something new in my life. And I guess it’s time for Jesus to come into my life, huh?" He prayed the prayer of salvation; we cast out the spirit of addiction and cravings; then we prayed for the Holy Spirit to fill him and for the healing of his back.
He pulled up hard and scary, but he left a whole new person.
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