I DIED AND WENT TO HEAVEN, a true story by Emil
In 2010 I went in for some dental work and it was decided to give me gas for the procedure. After the mask was put on me, I was feeling no discomfort or pain. I was laid back in the dental chair, listening to the dentist and his nurse. My feet were in front of a window and I could see outside. Shortly after the work began, I noticed a coldness starting in my feet. I thought it was from the air conditioning vents below my feet or maybe from the window. I watched the traffic go by to stop from thinking about my cold feet, but the coldness began moving from my feet into my lower legs. Then along with the coldness, a heaviness started at my feet and then up my legs. It felt as if someone was slowly pulling a lead blanket up over me from my feet! As the coldness and heaviness increased, I began singing to myself one of my favorite worship songs! I was enjoying the worship which started out faintly but very quickly began to intensify and so did the Lord’s presence! As the song increased in volume within me, the joy within me grew with it! I began singing to the Lord and found myself becoming totally engulfed in worship. The more the worship increased, so did the heaviness and the cold. Soon everything around me seemed to fade into the background and my focus was now totally consumed with only Jesus. My love for Him grew immensely. In a very short time, I was full of praise as I sang to myself with all of my heart to the Lord. Pretty soon I was engulfed in worship and absolutely, totally and completely in love with the Lord. My worship to Jesus and my all-consuming love for Him was like nothing I had ever experienced before in my life! I was singing to Jesus with every ounce of my being. I was so happy and exploding in love for Him. It was as if I couldn’t contain it! All sense of the world around me disappeared in my state of worship and love! Then the worship in me got even louder! I could literally hear every organ within my body begin to sing with me to the Lord! Not only could I hear it but I could also feel it! As the music and the worship continued to grow louder and more intense, the love began to radiate on the outside of my body as well! I looked at my arms and I saw that every hair on my arms had a mouth! I could see every cell, and every cell had a mouth! Millions of tiny mouths singing with me to the Lord! I literally had become a choir unto myself! The love I felt for the Lord was indescribable! My whole body, every cell, every organ, every hair was singing at the top of our breath to the Lord! I was sooooo in love with Jesus!
Then at the height of this all-consuming love and worship, the ceiling began to open up and a bright wonderful light opened up over me! I had no recollection of my surroundings or the dentist and his assistant working on my mouth. Their voices had faded into the background as I was completely engulfed in the presence of the Lord! When the whole ceiling opened up, I saw an incredible blue within a circle of a beautiful brilliant white cloud way up. I never realized at that point that I was actually dying, I never thought of anything outside of what I was experiencing in the moment. I began to rise up. I was moving upward and I could see beneath me! I could see myself in the chair below. I could see them working on me. I never thought, “Oh, I’m dying. Oh, I’m going to heaven.” I never thought anything. I was so wrapped up in the Lord and singing with everything in me. As I was going up, the singing got stronger and stronger. I looked up at the blue circle and cloud all around it and I could see a billion brightly-glowing people, all clothed in white, looking down at me, watching me as I was coming up. I was going up, singing and singing like I was my own orchestra—”WOW,” I thought, “they’re all singing the same thing I am!” Then suddenly I realized that they weren’t singing with ME! I was singing what the billions of glowing people were singing! I was singing what ALL of heaven was singing! It was so unreal when I realized I was singing heaven’s song! I then realized that all of heaven was waiting for me. Billions were watching me, waiting for me! As far as my eye could see were glowing faces in brilliant white robes.
As I came into the circle of clouds and into the indescribable blue, into the midst of billions of welcomers, into a place of pure love and worship like I had never experienced before, all of a sudden, Jesus was there! He was on the edge of the cloud and He floated out to the middle. I was screaming with JOY within myself! I was looking at Him! I was looking at Jesus! He came out to me until I was 3 feet from Him. Then He looked at me and put up His right hand in a stop motion. He spoke to me and gently and lovingly said “Wait, before you come in, I have one question to ask you.” I was like EEEEEE, so excited and happy! “Sure, yes,” I said, “What???” Jesus asked, “Do you think you’re done?” I said, “What??” Again He asked, “Do you think you’re done?” All of a sudden, it was like a Sci-Fi movie! I could see white fireballs with long streaks of light coming at me from every direction, coming in at a hundred miles an hour! Thoughts came into me: Swoosh! Swoosh! Swoosh! was the loud sound each one made as they entered into my mind at warp speed! It only took a second! Prophetic words I’d received over the years, words someone spoke to me, promises I’d gotten from the Lord. Then I began to have thoughts like, “Oh, we’re doing the food pantry at our church, we’re doing this with the church, oh, we’re doing this with the youth center, oh, You said we’re going to do this on the roadside, and oh we’re going to do that…NO! NO! NO! I’m NOT done!” Jesus looked at me so incredibly lovingly and then said to me in a voice of compassion, “Well then, go back,” and He motioned with His arm downward. I said immediately. “Yeah! Yeah!” and I started going back down and as I did, the light got a little dimmer, the song got a little quieter, the blue began to fade, the billions of people began to leave, and the hole into heaven got smaller and smaller.
All of a sudden, I was back in my body and immediately aware something was wrong! It took everything in me to force myself to speak and this really, really deep voice that felt like it was from a huge mile-deep black hole in me said, “I…..don’t…..feeeeel…..gooood.” The startled dentist looked at me! Then he looked the nurse! Then they both looked at the gauges on the tank of the gas they were giving me. The dentist in a panic jumped out of his chair, literally dove over me and landed on the other side of my chair on the floor in front of the two gas tanks. Frantically he turned the dials connected to the gauges. He turned the one dial one way and the other tank dial he spun frantically with his hands in the other direction. Then he turned towards the nurse and said in a loud voice, “You forgot to turn on the oxygen. You were killing him!” She had only given me the nitrous! He turned pure white and both the dentist and the nurse slumped back in their chairs. He put his hand on my chest and said, “Don’t move! Don’t move! Just breathe! Take deep breaths and just relax!” They finished my dental work after I assured them that I was ok to continue. I paid and left. I did not share my experience with them. I was so in awe, I couldn’t put it into words at that time! Karen had dropped me off and had driven across the street to the grocery store. When I came out of the dentist, she was not back yet so I walked across the street to the store just as she drove up. I got in the car and Karen asked, “How did it go?” I replied, “Good. I died and went to heaven.” Immediately she stopped the car: “You what!?” And I replied, “I’m so sorry, Honey—but I never once thought of you!!”
The most incredible thing of all of this is that I had always been afraid of dying! I was so afraid of all the regrets, the sins in my life, things I wish I would have, could have, should have done. What was amazing was I had absolutely no thought of sin in my life at all while I was dying. I never once thought of sin! I never thought of regret! I never thought of disappointment! None of that was there. I didn’t even know I was dying. I was still in my body but I could see heaven, I could hear heaven, I could feel heaven, and the love that came was something I wish I could put into words but I can’t. It’s a love and a joy that I can’t express. I wish I could have kept that feeling! They say God’s Word doesn’t fall void! What’s so amazing is that every prophetic word, every Rhema word, every word in the Bible, everything we were doing and everything the Lord said we would do–all came back to me at one time. The MOST amazing thing is that I was there! And Jesus asked so lovingly, “Do you think you’re done?” Jesus gave me the choice! Just think, if I would have said yes, I would be in heaven right now! Jesus Himself let me decide. So I guess you can clearly see, I’m not done yet. Karen and I have a lot more to do before we go home to be with Jesus!
One thing everyone asks me, “What was the song I was singing with heaven?” I wish I could remember but I don’t! Why am I sharing this story after 10 years? The Lord told me it was time!