What It Is Like to Die, For Real (Part 1 of 2)

This is a true story. This is my story. In 2010 I had some dental work and was given nitrous gas for the procedure. Shortly after the work began, a coldness started in my feet and moved into my lower legs. Then I felt a heaviness as if someone was slowly pulling a lead blanket up over me. As the cold and heaviness increased, I began singing to myself one of my favorite worship song! It started out faintly but quickly began to increase in volume and so did the Lord’s presence! The joy within me grew with it! The more the worship increased, so did the heaviness and the cold, but things  around me faded into the background as my focus was completely consumed with Jesus. I was full of praise as I sang within myself, with all my heart, to the Lord. I was engulfed in worship and totally in love with Him, like nothing I had ever experienced in my life! I was so happy and exploding in love for Him. I couldn’t contain it! As the worship in me got even louder, I could hear every organ within my body singing! I could feel it! The music grew louder and more intense, and the love began to radiate on the outside of my body as well! I saw that every hair on my arms had a mouth! I could see every cell, and every cell had a mouth! Millions of tiny mouths singing with me! I had become a choir unto myself! My whole body, every cell, every organ, every hair was singing at the top of our breath to Jesus, so in love with Him!

At the height of this all-consuming love and worship, the ceiling opened, and a bright light appeared over me! I saw an incredible blue within a circle of a brilliant white cloud way up. I began to rise. I could see below me myself in the chair being worked on. I never thought, “Oh, I’m dying. I’m going to heaven.” I never thought anything—I was so wrapped up in the Lord and singing with everything in me. As I was going up, the singing got stronger and I saw a billion brightly glowing people, all clothed in white, looking down at me, watching me as I was coming up. I was singing like I was my own orchestra—”WOW,” I thought, “they’re all singing the same thing I am!” Suddenly I realized that they weren’t singing with ME! I was singing what the billions of glowing people were singing! I was singing heaven’s song and all of heaven was waiting for me. As I came into the circle of clouds and the indescribable blue, into the midst of billions of welcomers, into a place of pure love, suddenly Jesus was there! He was on the edge of the cloud, and He floated out to the middle. I was screaming with JOY within myself! I was looking at Him! I was looking at Jesus! He came out to me until He was 3’ from me. He put up His right hand in a stop motion and gently and lovingly said “Wait, before you come in, I have one question to ask you.” I was like EEEEE, so excited and happy! “Sure, yes,” I said. Jesus asked, “Do you think you’re done?” I said, “What?” Again He asked, “Do you think you’re done?” Suddenly, like a Sci-Fi movie, I saw white fireballs with long streaks of light coming at me from every direction at a hundred miles an hour! Swoosh! Swoosh! Swoosh! was the loud sound each one made as thoughts entered my mind at warp speed! It only took a second!Prophetic words I’d received and promises from the Lord. “Oh, we’re doing the food pantry at our church

…oh, we’re doing this at the youth center…oh, You said we’re going to do this on the roadside…and oh we’re going to do that…” I cried out, “NO! NO! I’m NOT done!” Jesus looked at me so incredibly lovingly and said in a voice of compassion, as He motioned with His arm downward, “Well then, go back.”

(Continued next week)

-by Emil Liko 6/19/26